If you read my last post on dealing with anxiety and depression, then you may already be aware of the fact that I’ve been struggling for a while in a variety of ways. I’m not going to talk about that today, but what I will talk about is taking the next step to pick myself up and get on with life.
If you take a look through the archives, you’ll find that I have not been writing a lot recently. And when I have, it’s mostly been somewhat personal posts. Looking back, it’s been about 10 months since I wrote a travel-related post — which is quite eye-opening even for myself. I could say I’ve been busy, and I have been pursuing post-graduate studies this last year, but the truth is that I have felt uninspired. I’ve dreaded writing. For a couple of years, I put so much time into learning about blogging and trying to be consistent, and then I just started putting it off. And the more I did, the more it became this nagging thing that I couldn’t bring myself to address. I got caught up thinking that if I just re-designed the blog enough, re-focused the content, re-branded, I would feel inspired again. But it never happened.
Over the last couple of months, I’ve picked up journaling — which is something I have not done consistently for a very long time. It started as a way to pour out emotions, anxiety, and stress, to help me analyze my days and my goals. I also started focusing more on positivity and spending my time doing things that were more meaningful. I realized I was spending a lot of my day just trying to fill the time when I wasn’t working, which is not how I want to live. I want my free time to be spent learning, growing, improving my life or someone else’s in some way. As much as writing in this way has been therapeutic for me, I miss the way blogging encourages me to be more proactive with my time.
This has all been a bit of a ramble, but some things just need to be said. This will likely be my last purely personal post for a while. I’m planning on getting back into writing about travel, outdoor experiences, and minimalism with a lot more consistency. I have definitely still been having experiences that deserve to be recorded.